December 31, 2005
The Journey
Mauna Kea Covered with Snow Photo courtesey of the Hawaii Tribune Herald, Hilo Hawaii
"Dad Im hot and tired and we have walked so far, why doesnt God let us stop?"
"I dont know dear, but He has a plan for us and He is with us. Remember how He did many miracles while we were in fear and in bondage in the Green Land, and wanting a better life for ourselves?"
"I know, Dad. But I miss the green trees that never turn brown and the ocean and my friends there. Its so hot here and the nights are so cold. I just want to be at home."
"You had few real friends there, dear. They mostly only tolerated you because of what you could do for them. Didnt you just tell me how beautiful the seasons are in this new land that God is giving to us, and that you were glad for the new things that I have given you to do. Yes this is a desert, a place where it hardly rains, but it is a land that has not forgotten who God really is, and He has blessed it.
"But I dont belong here"
"You didnt belong there either"
"Where DO I belong..."
"Dear, you belong wherever God takes you. He has promised you that he would give you the land you just need to believe, and keep moving. There is rest and home in the end of the journey...I thought about this little dialougue this morning as I had my prayer time. I felt that this was how I was feeling yesterday. And I am sorry about it, but I am weary and yes I wish I had a home at my job... This moving around thing bothers me. Just as I get comfortable, I get ripped away and plunged into a new situation where I must reimpress people and learn a new way of doing things. This is hard for everyone but I find it exceptionally difficult.
But I should trust God more.
That is what this year has been about. Going forward when I wasnt sure that I should. Taking the risks and so far all of the things that we have done were the right things to do, even when it hurts...
Yes I still feel a bit like a displaced person, but that is going to change. This year was the year of the "Hua kai", the long journey. Next year is the year of "Mai Kauhale" the comming home.
That isnt something that will just happen, I need to do what I can to make it happen for myself. That may mean making a place for myself someplace.
I want to thank all of my readers that have encouraged me through this year of change. It has been an interesting challenging adventure. Stay tuned, the adventure continues
Have a Blessed New Year!
