October 25, 2003
Trials, but a glimmer of light...
We are in a state of constant change. Yes I know but that doesnt mean that I have to like it. For the last week we are off line at home as Woody didnt see fit to pay the cable bill. Well I failed to pay the mortgage so what....I didnt have the money....at least the lights are on...
We have had some great sales this week and that is a big help. I hope that the trend continues. If things continue I think I can get a bit ahead... Milton the rep from Steven Lee was in town and he had some great things to show me. Bought enough to scare myself yet if I dont have goods to sell then what will I do? So I have a few fresh things and I think that is all to the good. How I will pay for this is another matter and I will need to address this in the comming weeks ahead.
Money is a central theme. Woody seems to be nonplused about it all I am at the screaming point. Ye Gods, what next? but I cant change anything right now. ... I got a bit upset when he let it slip that he felt that I was the one in control of our finances... Ha! I asked him why he said that and he backed away quickly.... Well he knows that it is a bald faced lie and that he is in control of a lot of things and if he had been looking for a job sooner we would be far better off than we are now. But I cant make him do anything and sooooo here we are. With no internet I can get a bloody lot of work done on the home system as Woody wont be hogging it playing Neopets.
The trials of this thing are not just on the home front, but at the store. We are having constant problems with the locals here and their "friends". I say "friends"as what I really mean is the hangers on that hang here and bring their drugs and corruption here. I saw two drug deals go down here in front of the store in the last few days and there are more people going out of this "secure" building than the Prince Kuhio Mall down the road. something is going on in the building, or why the traffic? Reason being is that these "apartments" (I use the term very loosely... cubicles is a better term) have no attraction, other than hotbeds of corruption. I know that we have drugs big time in there and that this is hurting my business. So I have met with the superintendent and he is going to have a talk with the offenders and there has to be a few changes plus they need to have a drug sweep in here. I will be calling the "Neighborhood Police" police guy next week to talk to them about having more patroling going on. The super says they need a guard here full time. I agree.
Darryl also said that the building is up for sale and the present owners are not interested in anything but selling and that means keeping the place tenanted with whatever will rent here. Uggh! that could also be bad news for me as I may have to move anyway. Better think about that. Start looking for a new place soon...
I have had two noon times out for lunch and a bit of R and R , which I spent at the bayfront with a little burger and wave watching. The whales have been spotted and they might come into the bay to check things out as they sometimes do. today I watched a group of people who sail these little skiffs, with pretty colored sails. I thought that this might be a fun thing to do But I think that it is a whole lot of work and that that the little craft are a bit more than I could handle on my own.
It seems that I measure much of my life by..."could I go it alone..." I feel very alone at times, dreadfully so. Its one thing to be alone, when one is alone, but its twice as lonely when you are alone which someone who should be your soulmate. I cant believe that we are so apart on so much. Its dreadful... I pray but I dont think that much will change....
