November 30, 2004

Privacy

The Endless Clifts Waipio Lookout North Kohala Hawaii...

I am a private person...

I seldom have someone other than Woody in my space for more than a few hours at a time...and have not lived with anyone else in my home other than Woody since 1988...Its a shock, I think, just having the vibrations of another soul in the home...I enjoy it, and having visitors is a treat, and feel the loss deeply in the absence of it when visitors leave...

This is a statement made...I know that all must sound crazy... after all, I have broadcasted my life on the information super highway billboard, known as the Blogasphere. I dont mind sharing information, in fact I have found it very theraputic...sort of like going to group therapy after so many years...But in the past few days I have been feeling things Id rather not discuss and dont want to write about. I feel like I have not so much something to hide but feel rather over exposed... like I have a sunburn of the soul... its a physical thing...

Maybe I just need to shut up...

I will be posting about my time with Monica... We went to a number of places on the Island, with the crowning moments I think here at Waipio Valley, where this photo was taken. It was a lovely time, and a reveiling time which I think is why I feel so odd...

I may not post much for the next week or so I am off to LA 12-2 to see my Mom and dont know when I can get to a computer. Will be back on the 8th.

I have many questions that I have for myself... I feel somewhat fragmented and a bit unsure of myself... Could be that I am just weary and need a few days to recover. I have been more physically active than I have been and while I like that, I am tired. I am also Hiving again... For those that dont know one of the reasons that I came to the islands was to leave behind the allergies that caused me to break out in hives the size of dinner plates in a 6-8 hour cycle 24-7... Either its the pineapple, or the thought of going back to LA and dealing with my Mom and a bunch of stuff that has come up in the past week with her...

I would appreciate your prayers and good thoughts as I venture back to California for the first time in over three years its bound to be a shock.