April 06, 2005

Happy Birthday Mom

Having the time of her life my Mom crusing aboard the RCCL Song of America Thanksgiving Week 1992

Dear Mom...

I am writing this to you as a way to celebrate your birthday today. I know that you would like to have me there with you, and I wish that I could be there.

This is not easy to write. For even though we have a good relationship maybe even a great relationship as far as things go there is this reserve that we both seem to share. A unwillingness to go deeper and to really talk about things. As we both know there are a lot of things that you refused to speak of and things that I just have always known were off limits...Its sad as now you cannot speak and we cannot have these conversations.I find that I tell you that I love you more often now and I wish those had been words more often said in our home as we were growing up... I can and do talk at you and I hope that you are not too frustrated by not being able to talk back.

We have had a lot of good times. I look at this photo, taken not too long after the release of Dad's death. We traveled together and did a lot of things together. It was a wonderful thing and I look back on it and cherish every moment that we had together. I am so grateful that God allowed us to do the things that we were able to do and to see the things that we were able to see...

The Southwest... Alaska... Hawaii... I have those moments engraved in my minds eye and will not lose them.