December 02, 2005

Friday Update

The palms of Wailoa Wailoa State Park Hilo Hawaii

Well I have been working for a week and I am flat out bushed. A lot has been crammed into my very hard head in short order. I feel like I have returned to a foreign land and while the language seems familiar, it is not the same. I have watched people do in a moment what used to take hours with the click of a mouse. It amazes me

But some things stay the same. I heard the wail of a young woman in a cubicle nearby..."What do you mean you are in Illinois getting fuel and your truck wont start you were supposed to be in Kansas Yesterday to pick up that load!!!" I thought "Lord do I really want these headaches again?" I guess so nobody drafted me for this I am here of my own free will mostly.

Woody is not doing well as a house husband, but he trying. I feel badly as I have spoiled him somewhat. But hopefully these feelings of domestic inadequacies will result in a stronger job search. But right now there isnt much effort going on in that area. One thing I must say is that he was invited to apply here and did so. I think Woody would thrive in this group think, closly monitored, quarterly reviewed beehive of a place. Me as a Lone Ranger, Im not sure how this will work out but then as one of the folks I sat with said..."we need a few like you to keep it lively around here."

There is a good spirit about the place and I am thankful for that. Most of the places where I have worked in the past there was a meanesss and a negativity, born out of stress competition amd hard labor that was so very hard to manage. I cant tell you how many times I would go to the Ladies room get on my knees and ask for Divine intervention because there was nothing else to do and to go to someone was to open myself up to critisism for not having something handled before the disisaster struck or things got out of hand...I was a lot younger then mentally and spiritually, and the business dirtier less automated and more corrupt than it is now. The freight business will always be a bit shady I think but the computer, with the Internet, GPS and new regulations passed in the late 90's make things a bit more civilized.

I am weary to the bone and look forward to the week end. Eventually I will get used to the early mornings and not getting a nap in the afternoon. With insurance I can get some things taken care of that will allow me to sleep better. We banished the cats from the bed and that has made a world of difference.

Thank you for your prayers and support. I hope that your holidays are proceeding well if not peacefully. I was in Wal-Mart last night and the madness is upon even this quiet place....