December 05, 2005

On Being "New"

I said years ago
that this was a spot
I chose not to stand on
a place never to revisit

But hear I am, new again
lost in a place that should be familiar
but is like I have landed in China
A Stranger in a stranger land

Hold my hand, at least
show me where the restroom is
and do not give me the broken desk
or the computer that wont boot up

Or stake your claim, "this is my
Space, the place where I am".
"You are the newest, and as such
deserve the least of considerations"

Remember, you were here once
for some here, not so long ago
Even so, give me the chance
to become a work companion...

It hasn't been easy this past week. Things have, all things being equal, gone well. I think that my new co workers on my team have been holding their breath, as I have been holding mine, and now we have met and the inevitable ajustments are occurring. Its always such a process. I have cried only in private, mostly because I have this let down complex. Now that we are introduced I can quit holding my breath. All will work it's self out.

Woody and I had words as he really doesn't understand that he has to help me or I wont be able to keep this up. I allowed the house in Hawaii to turn into a slime pit, after all my store was different. This job is voluntary and frankly I will quit rather than do all that I did as a not working gal .

I have another badly broken tooth so its off to the dentist and likely extraction. I am ok with this and my new boss very supportive. I expect all will go well.