December 06, 2005

Winter Invasion

my new best friend...

Its cold. I know that a lot of you are dealing with this and I totally sympathize. I dont think that I understood what cold was. Even now with it at freezing and below, I know this is mild compares to lets say Fargo ND right now.

We have a heat pump but I am comming to loathe the contraption. The air it blows is sooo cold...I long for the massive gas powered floor furnace that was in the hall of my 1920's farm house. The thing blasted hot toasty air straight up. It baked my back and I would jump into bed and be asleep before the effect wore off....uggh those were the days...

I am not very creative just now and seem to have a bit of writers block. I have a lot of mixed feelings this week, weariness from the job... I had a tooth extracted yesterday and that still hurts. I am doing fine and will be ok, in many ways I am better off now that the infection is now been removed and I can eat without pain

It has now been a year since I have seen my Mother and I have a sense of dismalness about that. I love the holidays and all that they mean, but those feelings battle with the lack of family stuff, Woody can take it or leave it all and the change of seasons the weather ect...

The is little to inspire. I am also a bit intimidated that December of last year I think I did my best writing ever. So I pray for a bit of inspiration as I drive to work and try to intigrate myself into a group that really doesnt want me there. Its just a test of my nerve my willingness to tough it out...but one gets weary of such tests....

Lord, Have mercy...