January 31, 2006

The Mental Health Day

my furry companions joining me as we looked out the window of my reading room. It was such a lovely day...

I had a rough night sunday night and decided to take a sick day and spend one of the, maybe the first day I have ever spent alone here at the house. The silence was profound. I had a chance to rest sleep and go through a few cartons. I sat in front of the fire and lit a candle. I took a deep breath.

I sat out in the park circle in the sun for a few minutes and listen to the wind. I know that I will love being there all of the time. I maybe needed to see what I am going for so I can continue on working.

What may ellude you is that the silence, the peace of a quiet house never gets old. I could spend months alone and not feel cut off. I feel cut off in the continuous stream of noise I deal with on a job, or laying in bed with someone that really doesnt know you. I would find enough outlets for myself to keep from being a recluse. I can hear myself think and hear God speak to me in the stillness...

...and I lose my sense of self in the roar, and in never having time alone, I am not checking in with me... which is the whole point of a Mental Health Day...

I can go back to the noise and deal with it.