March 11, 2006

Breath of Spring

Field Flowers Beaver Arkansas

Its been warm enough to leave the window open at night and flowers are peaking up everywhere. Its so amazing that it was just a few weeks ago that we had ice and snow. The last few days I have had the house opened up and we are wearing shorts.

Its also comming round to a year now that we left Hawaii. Seems that everyday Woody says something about the final days that we were there, it was hard but we did have a good time too...

It also means that we are farther along in the resettling process and now we have a point of reference to say "this is where we came from... now where are we going?"

I cant speak for Woody... as he said tonight, he cant hardly speak for himself, this is not a strong point for him, I dont think he's ever given the future much though at anytime in his life...Its always about the now with him and I know its difficult...

I know because I was once this way myself... What changed was getting help, and I wish he would go to counselling,but I have stopped asking about it and just pray about it now. As for me, there just isnt time to spend wondering about "why I didnt get the HSN job..." Woody says that made a huge impression on him how hard I worked for that and didnt get it...I told him that sometimes its not about getting whatever we are working for sometimes its just about doing it,whatever it is...

I feel this way about the situation at the Grapevine with our little business. Twice as much product left not paid for as was paid for so we are closing the booth down and keeping the jewelry part open. The product that we bought we are going to keep selling out of a locked case in the front of the Mall untill its gone then we will likely stay with jewelry only and perhaps eventually start the jewelry repair business. To some of you this will seem to be a retreat to what I wanted to do six months ago, but as I see it I couldnt have really done it before because I had no venue to receive repair work, now that I have a place to meet people publically I could get a flow of work. We wouldnt have considered it if there hadnt been this "failure"...Or the situation at "thisplace" which can end at any time... or getting my vision fixed which I wouldnt have done without thisplace and the insurance they provided me...

Its all about the journey, and I am slowly learning that sucess or failure that nothing can be discounted. God seems to use every little bit squeezing out a future like He created water in those rocks in the Sinai for the Israelites.

Speaking of that it my two weeks of homemaking I unearthered and hung one of our households great treasures I will photograph them and post the pics this week

Springs arrival heralds changes... I cant wait...