June 19, 2006

Peaceful Light

A river of evening light pouring through the forest canopy in my back yard. This stream of light will eventually pour into my workshop every afternoon....God willing

Its a brilliant evening. There is a brush of a breeze and the various sounds of the evening, birds, the chatter of sparrows and finches, the call of other birds I cannot name yet and then The tropical sounding shreak followed by rapid loud staccato of the Pileated Woodpecker. It sounds like a howler monkey beating on the rim of a Snare drum.The bird is fairly large and very pretty as woodpeckers go
The Pileated Woodpecker

But the amazing thing to me is the golden light that pours through the branches of the trees, gleaming like a river of light. It causes me to pause, to close my eyes in wonder and think about things higher than my puny self can fathom. The cats love this light and will stop what they are doing to run out to the lanai and bask in it for as long as it lasts...

Nani laying in her personal sunbeam

The cicadas have come...As the fireflies have started to fade, these noisy insects and will sing until the cold sets in in October. Summer is well and truly here in the Ozarks.....

Today as Woody and I took a sunday drive out in the countryside, I found myself pondering the things that God has placed on my heart regarding my job. I have received appologies from management and from my new boss the word that "balance" is his watchword and that he is pushing for a shorter work day and a rotating weekend shift. Rotating to these people means every other week end versus ever weekend... No I dont think so... More like once a month. NewBoss feels the same and called for others in the company that might like to work extra to be allowed to do that to give us all a break. That was done and I hope that things worked out ok saturday

I was thinking about quitting right away but I heard a study on St. Josheph this morning that changed my mind and encouraged me to relax and see how things go and try not to rebel against all that goes on. Joseph just did what God asked him too,when God asked him to do it...,I need to do this too and quit the mental backtalk and just go with the program as best I can.. But I will firmly continue to reduce my hours, and save for the future. It is really not necessary for me to quit. In fact as things are being built I dont need to supervise every little thing. So, I am trusting God, to show me the proper time. The extra cash will help too... Woody is behind it he says untill they start getting crazy again and then we will have to revisit it....

I am thankful to have a boss now that lets me alone to just do my work and get it done .I am back to taking a lunch break and two breaks . Hey the smokers go and take their breaks I am not going to be left out of this break bonanza. I take a long walk around the building and so enjoy that. I have a chance to refocus my mind...there is nothing I am doing that is more important than prayer and being who I am. This situation is temporary and I can do it one day at a time...

I had a contractor in and he is willing to start my project, building me a workshop. Price was good and I liked him. But after the fiasco of our remodel there will be two bids, references and photos, as well as a contract that will drop dead on a certain date for compleation. The building of the shel of the shop is only the beginning. I need water, power and fininshing on the inside. This is a much bigger project than perhaps it seems on the surfice, but by doing things right now it will save me in the long run. Woody is nearly always a quality above economy guy so onward with the building... with references please...

We have not heard anything from my aunts regarding my Mother. Parkinsons is a dreadful illness, it is my hope that she goes quickly and in peace.

My kitties Mak and Nani are doing very well. Mak is over his urinary tract infection and is now on a low fat diet to deal with his colesteral... There has been a bit of lack of grooming but we are going to take of that this evening... They are frisky and full of life and I believe as happy as they were in Hawaii. When it rains like it did yesterday I see them turn their faces to the sky, and wonder if they remember the forest and the tropical breezes...It has been warm and humid enough that if I just close my eyes I think we could all be transported back to the Big Island once more just for an instant...

I am dazzeled by the way God has brought us to this moment in time... We spoke this morning to a group of newcommers to this land about how we have been blessed by a willingness to be obedient...God has blessed us in return for that faith. I am reminded even now as the light streams into the lanai...Peaceful Light reminding me that there is light at the end of this tunnel, I need only to trust and believe