March 01, 2007
The New Time
Sugar Creek, Near Jane Missouri
It feels like spring here in the Ozarks, Its been warm and the trees show signs of budding out but you wouldnt know it today, it looks like its going to snow out the windows near my desk. I am typing this at work, as I will be busy for the next few days and no where near a computer.
I have been at a loss about what to write here and when... Writers block hasnt been an issue for me much, I have always had something to say but the past six months or so its been really hard. I know what part of the trouble is... I have only the past inside of my heart, its been hard to look at the world and find something new in it. Perhaps I have come to the tipping point in life where the past and the pile of memories good and bad begins to outweigh anything in the present... or maybe its my seeming inability to let go of that past and look to the future.
Woody is part of the problem. He seems bent on NOT hearing what I have to say. Lst sunday he was particularly bad, to the point of putting his hands over his ears as I tearfully tried to tell him what was bothering me. He says hes sick of my madness and metephore just to tell him what he should do. How do explain that love is more than the sum of material gifts and longevity? He freely admits to being the least empatheic person on the planet. only to me, he will blubber over a sad story the pastor tells or the broken claw stuck in our cats pad on her paw. (I know it hurts, but pull it out quick, dont sit there and cry... Nani will lick it and keep it clean) then...
But then there is...then... the times he does step up to the plate and stand with me on something... It baffles me and I am not sure even he understands why he feels the way he does...I have been reserching something and plan to write on it sometime, with regards to this issue.
But not today. I have been interviewing inter company for a number of positions that have been comming up and will have a new job soon here at "thisplace". I am looking forward to doing something new. Currently I am doing housekeeping sorts of things. Following up paperwork, data entry and stuff like that for my old account. Anything to keep busy.
As I said earlier I am off for a weekend at the
Little Portion Hermatage for a retreat. The subject is Lent, a rather new spiritual opportunity for me, comming from my protestant background. As a Methodist we also have Lent but its really different than the Catholic version. The speaker is the celebrated Christian recording artist
John Michael Talbot, who is also the spiritual leader of the Hermatage. On sabatical this year from touring (sort of he has engagements but just not as many) he is leading several retreats and I hope to attend three of them over the course of this year. The Hermatage is about 50 miles away near Eureka Springs. I look forward to telling you about the weekend and to take some great pictures as well. Keep me in prayer as I drive to and from as well as absorb new ideas about Lent and about worship as I sit under the teaching of the great man.
I am waiting in antisipation of a "New Time" in my life... I feel that God is bringing this into my life. Woody wants a change too, I dont know that he prays for this but he is sick of the stress he feels with regards to our situation. It is my hope to see this soon and I am ready for change just as the hill country is ready for spring...
Labels: John Michael Talbot, Little Portion
