May 25, 2007

Traveling While Sitting Still

The Road Less Traveled, hwy 264 w near Cave Springs Arkansas

I am on a journey. I cant tell you all of the details now, because there are those reading this blog that might take this information wrong. I have been as transparent as pool water for the last four years and it pains me to have to couch my words for fear that certain people involved in my and Woody's life will take it wrong... and use it against me.

Let the reader understand... I love Woody and would do anything to make things work out, but I am no longer willing to sacrifice my life and well being to the situation. God is doing a great work of strengthening me and encouraging me to be humble and compassionate, but firm as far as this goes. There needs to be change of hearts on both of our parts...

Woody is comming home on Monday. I have told him that things will be different. Nothing is static and as two people live their lives, they grow and change. The last two weeks and the time I have had to think about everything has changed me. He may or may not like the changes. Thats ok...

I think I know what I want, but am not sure what God wants... so I am taking the advice of the Psalmist in Psalm 46 "Be still and know that I am God..." I choose to be quiet and not do anything until I am sure that I am doing what God would have me to do.

Until then, I will continue on The Journey. I am still losing weight, and the night shift continues to be a great change for me. I am off to the second of three retreats with John Michael Talbot next weekend, so looking forward to that. I am connecting up with old and new friends and find that this is the best change of all.

There is nothing like taking a trip, while sitting still...

Labels: John Michael Talbot, Woody