February 24, 2009

Death In The Family

my Annabelle

giving thanks always and for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, Ephesians 5:20

my beautifull little girl went to God this morning sometime between 1 and 5 am She went to sleep peacefully after Woody came to see her last night when we got back from the vet... We were full of hope. I believe She had something like Parvo...even though she was fully vaccinated. She lost so much blood, she was in shock and while we managed to warm her up she didnt stay warm. My heart knew when we were going to the vet that she wasnt going to make it and there was some reason God knew for that.

I realized that, as I drove into the night with her, that much of my decision making has been based on her needs as well it should be, she was my responsibility. When I thought about this and losing her and all that this means. I was mad at God for a moment, and then I said outloud..,. God if you want her, you may have her. I dont want anything between You and I. Never give something you dont mean to give to God...He will do what is best for you even if it seems just too awful.

Not wanting to sound all holy, but my first thought as I sat down with her stiffening body in my arms want how very thankful I am that I had her even for this short while. God gave me a precious gift. She thaught me what love is, unconditional love. And I rejoice in her life . She made so many people happy. She was my good friend and while I dont know how I will go on from here, without her to love... but I will go on.

Someday there will be another puppy another time of love and discovery. God knows the reason for this loss. Maybe I will see it someday but for now my heart is just broken...

I will post again in a week or two

even now her one eye is open like that... God bless you, baby on your new journey

Labels: Annabelle, Personal Growth, Relationships, Woody