May 18, 2007

In the Green Room Of Silence

Walking out of the tree tunnel, Lake Bella Vista, Bella Vista AR



I was sitting in the park like "circle" in front of the house this morning, surrounded by oak trees that have finally and vigorusly leafed out and produced a canopy of bright green leaves that rustle at ever puff of breeze that drifts by. There is a deep quiet on the street, I can hear talking in the distance but it is so far away that I cant make out the words...I take a deep breath and smell the smell of clean air...

Woody sure as heck cant do that in LA...

I took a walk today just before comming into work. I walked the mile and a quarter around Lake Bella Vista on the lovely walking trail. I felt really good and wanted to just spend as much time as I could outside. The world around me is a bright green. There are streams that feed the lake to cross over...on one of the bridges a little boy maybe four or five came running up to me and chirpped in a delightful British accent..."Lady, Lady, what sort of fish is that in your river?" and he practically dragged me to the rail of the bridge. His young mother appologizing profusely, was trying to keep her toddler in the stroller and he kept trying to climb out for a better look at his brother's amazing sighting...and it was amazing a huge blue catfish was swimming out from under the bridge and back again, his long barbels dragging up mud as he looked for food. We had a great time and Mum was as grateful as I was to get out into the sun shine...

I am now at work alone having the entire huge floor to myself. I am absorbed in the silence only a computer harddrive is whining and the end of the row...Earlier I watched the brilliant sunset from the windows facing west...I am told that a building is goiong to be built that will block this view... I havent seen any staking, so I dont know. I hope not. But for now I have that every evening to lookforward to... just as I looked forward to the sunrises every morning when I drove to work for the day shift

I am now ending my second week tonight on the 4 pm to 1 am shift. I am doing very well. I find that I am getting plenty of sleep, waking before the alarm that I have set just in case I dont wake up on my own...this morning it was Mak and Nani fighting... Nani howls like a woman being murdered...nobody could sleep through that. Last night I had to shut the furry darlings out. With Woody gone Mak doesnt care if he sleeps on our bed or not... but they play in the bedroom thinking that I am up so I must want to play too. Noooo bed is all I want and maybe a little snack...

My work is light right now... The account hasnt officially started up, they do have some freight flowing through so that we can set things up, and train our people. All of the people have been hired and trained in advance... We are the largest account in the building and will eventually have all 42 of this beverage container company's manufacturing plants shipping under our wing. Its a daunting prospect as over two Billion containers not just soda pop cans but juice cans and those plastic bottles for yougurt drinks and such out of one plant alone. All of those empties have to go somewhere to be filled... its huge. We are just the first wave of people and fortunatly the plants are comming on slowly so we wont have all of the volume for a long while...

Soon I wont be the only night person, but that will be ok, There will be so much to do that I will need help. Right now I spend a lot of time just waiting for the phone to ring but there will one day be loads to track and questions to answer. I am available to give direction and to problem solve. I dont mind the slowness. I listen to my Ipod, without headphones because there is no one around to care...though my boss was here and I put Fernando Ortega on and he liked that a lot. Soothing piano and his vocals are like the Holy Spirit whispering in your ear...

I make calls on loads picking up and delivering on my shift. like tonight I am usually done by 8 pm I then turn teaching on until time to go home. I am getting about 4-5 hours a day of Bible teaching which I love...

I am dealing with this thing with Woody. I have heard from a number of you, and thanks for that. I know that he needs a talking to at the very least and there needs to be changes. I havent yet decided what I want to do. I dont want the things that have been going on and I am weary of Woody's issues. As I sit alone here I feel like the page has turned and nothing will ever be the same again. He thinks that all is well but not in my heart... I cant forget this, and can hardly forgive but I will because God wills that but the accounting will come one day.

The Green Room is the room where people are prepared before they go on the stage or the radio. I feel like I am in the Green Room... being prepared for something, perhaps I have been in the Green Room and I am leaving it. I know that I feel very close to God and know that things are happening behind the scenes. God willing I will be ready for whatever happens to me....in the mean time I will enjoy the quiet

Labels: Bella Vista, Woody, working