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My Wide Blue Seas

Its All About The Journey



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Name~ Hokule'a Kealoha

Short Bio~Hokule'a Kealoha is the Nom De Plume of a writer that formerly lived in Hawaii and is now living a life of adventure on the highways and byways of the American South . I am a Born Again follower of Jesus, as well as a wife, mother of cats and dogs,jeweler, entreprenuer, photographer and pilgrim...

Age~ Old enough to know better

Status~ Newly Single after 13 years of marriage,fur mom to the loving and devoted mini ShihTzu doggie Annabelle, born 6-11-2007 RIP 2-25-09, and the beautiful Abigail born 2-14-09

Hair Color~ natural brown/grey

Mood~ I ALWAYS have a mood, try me...

Loving~ Jesus, Hawaii, my furry friend, Abigail, my Pen Pals, Jewelry ,Blogging ,Writing anything,my Ipod,and being outdoors surrounded by my wonderful natural surroundings

Hating~ Boom Box Cars, Earspray, Abuse of Power,

Reading~
  • Bible


  • Magnificat


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  • Underwired! Louisville's magazine for Women


  • In Store~The Magazine for the American Jeweler



  • Books in Progress...
  • CATECHISM OF THE CATHOLIC CHURCH


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  • Just Finished Reading

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  • Jesus, Divine Mercy ~
    Learn About The Divine Mercy
    I Trust In You~

    My Favorite Past Posts~Relive The Journey!~
    2009~
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  • 2008~
  • Be Thankful


  • Colateral Damage


  • Make Lemonade


  • Home Is Where The Heart Is


  • The Poor With Us


  • Because Its The Hardest Thing I Can Do


  • We Have All Become Victims


  • Lest I Forget


  • The Most Important Words


  • Family Values


  • Familiar Places


  • May Perpetual Light Shine On Them


  • A City In Motion


  • 2007~
  • The Quiet Storm


  • Fellowship of the Cane


  • Like Dead Unremembered: A 9-11 Tribute


  • The Medicine Machine


  • One Giant Leap


  • In The Steps of St. Francis


  • Too Much Information


  • The Un Choice


  • 2006~
  • The Holly and the Ivy


  • The First 9-11, Dec 7,1941


  • Small Moments of Silence


  • Peaches to Winnipeg


  • Dreaming of Hawaii


  • Memorial Day


  • Scattered Values


  • The White Line is the Lifeline for the Nation


  • Warnings of a New Civil War


  • I Will Be True To The Promise I Have Made


  • The Snowy Bloody Day


  • Cats in the Cradle


  • 2005~
  • The Journey


  • Rebirth of a City


  • For Posterity's Sake


  • The New Civil War


  • Every Mother's Son


  • And There You Stayed, Temporarily Lost at Sea


  • The Lone Rider


  • The Bible Is Not the Fourth Member of the Trinity


  • Rome Wasn't Built With Union Labor


  • Happy Birthday Mom ~revised~


  • A Beautiful Noise


  • Even Now


  • The Wearing of the Red


  • Night Ranger


  • The Joyful Traveler


  • Hoiliili "To Gather Up"


  • Ke Makakilo (My Observations)


  • He Giveth Sleep


  • Save The Children


  • 2004~
  • Lux Aeterna


  • December 2004


  • You're Joking, Right?


  • Ground Zero


  • I Am Not A Failure


  • O,To Grace, How Great A Debtor


  • Lost In Translation


  • One Small Step for Man


  • The Rainbow's End


  • Profanity


  • Taps


  • The Journey


  • Makoa's Song


  • No Aloha For The Weakest


  • The Paradoxical Comandments


  • The Time Is Now


  • 2003~
  • When No Fruit Is On The Vine



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    St Teresa Benedicta of the Cross
    St. Edith Stein~Pray for Us

    Religion Link List~

  • My Secret is Mine


  • Ignatius Insight-Online Magazine


  • Fr John Corapi SOLT


  • Dr. Scott Hahn St Paul Center


  • Fr. Mitch Pacwa~ Ignatius Productions


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  • Political Link List~
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  • Arkansas Link List~
  • Little Portion Hermitage


  • John Michael Talbot website


  • John Michael Talbot Myspace page


  • 1st United Methodist Church Bella Vista


  • Northwest Arkansas Guide



  • Mimi's Cafe


  • Metro Woman Business Directory of NW Arkansas


  • River Grille


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  • Interactive Links~

    Live WebCam Feed from the Mauna Lani Resort, Kohalla, Big Island of Hawaii


    Click here for Aloha Joe!Live Hawaiian Music 24/7

    St Damein of Molokai'i,Patron Saint of Hawaii, Pray for us

    St. Damien of Molokai'i, Patron of Hawaii and the Outcasts among us, pray for us....

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    Hawaii Links~ ~
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  • Volcano Updates (Pele's Mood Meter)Hawaii Volcano Observatory

  • Hawaii Volcanoes National Park

  • Volcano Watch Archives

  • Mauna Kea Observatory

  • Pacific Tsunami Museum

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  • Technorotica for Blogging~





    Blogarama - The Blog Directory

    Listed on BlogShares


    Christianity Blog Directory


  • Who Links Here...Click here to see who's linking to this site. Powered by WhoLinksToMe.com

  • Globe of Blogs~Blog search engine

  • The Blog Search Engine

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  • BlogSkins

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  • Wikipedia



  • Nuzio's Place on the Web


  • Commutefaster.com


  • PING ME!


  • MWBS Wordpress Edition


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  • Technorotica for Jewelers, and the Jewelry Trade~

  • Gemological Institute of America


  • The Drouhard National Jewelers School


  • The Conner School



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  • July 12, 2007

    A Question of Direction

    A wilderness view, Tanyard Creek Nature Trail, Bella Vista Arkansas

    Post begun July 3 2007

    "What were you thinking?... you werent thinking, you are out of your mind!"
    "Im not out of my mind, I can afford it, and I knew you wouldnt understand and youd yell at me..."
    "Thats a 30,000.00 car and you dont have a job."
    "Im using the intrest off of my retirement account to make the payments, and restoring my credit."
    "You are supposed to be saving that for the future...what about your old age?"
    "Tomorrow will take care of itsself, I wanted the car and I dont care what you think"
    "You didnt even call me or consider the potential fallout from this decision"
    " I didnt care, I dont care..."
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    It was 2 am and I was pulling into the drive, it had been a long night at work and I was beat. I thought that I was seeing things...

    There was a flaming red Chrysler Crossfire Coupe in my driveway...

    I was so mad I couldnt see straight and well, it was very unpleasent for several hours... and its still unpleasent with regards to the car even now a week later.

    He has a story about it...he always has something to say, but he cant justify it. He schemed for weeks and didnt tell me. He allowed the crooks at the dealership to convince him he deserved it and how wonderful it would be for him when really they had screwed up and ordered the wrong car and this was a way for them to sell it with out it ever hitting the showroom floor.

    I find that it typifies our life right now...a sort of "every savage for themselves" mentality that makes me constantly wonder what I am doing here. I am now in a separate bedroom, Yes I have all of my stuff in there (I feel like I am sleeping in a library) and my new bed is comfortable to the point of luxurious. I can sleep all that I want and not worry about waking Woody up when I come home at night... but this "practical" plan has left me feeling somewhat lost and very sad. I dont have even the little contact that I used to have with him...

    July 12

    Divorce resolves nothing. It creates a whole set of new problems, and for the two of us who have few options, we really need each other. We need to work things out and not just harden our hearts totally. I feel very fortunate that we have people around us that are committing helping us work through things.

    A good friend talked to me about my anger, bitterness and resentment. I overflow with these negative emotions that yes are well justified but in truth only hurt me. I cant control Woody, only myself. Those are things that I have to deal with, regardless of what Woody does or how he acts. This resentment of his seemingly effortless way of life, financially and otherwise is sinful. I feel like I have to struggle all of the time and envy his life...when in reality its God that puts us where we are. I cant change how my life is by much, I have attempted to be faithful in what I can so I need to rest in God's provision and quit looking at Woody, who may be getting his reward...

    I have tried to make peace with the car... its pretty, the way most impractical things are pretty. I rode up to Eureka Springs in it...pretty much spent the day in the car. My body ached for days, I have deep tissue bruises where the roll bars dug grooves into my thighs and my backside is sore from having to pretty much sit on my tailbone bent crooked as we drive all over More Mountain... I managed to ignore my claustrophobia and how a car like that reminds me of a coffin and I feel like I am going to suffocate in the low riding go cart of a thing....

    I still want to kick it everytime I pass it in the drive as I come home from a hard nights work. To me it symbolizes everything I despise anymore.... conspicuous consumption, living beyond ones means... and the neighbors who see Woody clambering out of it, struggling... then say to me "why?"... I cant answer that as I dont know. It is I dont know, a sign of the huge rift that has always been, just manifesting itself now. We are so different and I doubt that we will ever truly connect. We can only hope to move in a better more positive direction...

    Postscript...tonight at work my boss says "Hey, Hoku, your hesbands on the phone..." Yeah , its Woody, wanting me to come down to the parking lot. There he is with another car, a used Toyota Avalon. It has seen better days but it is comfortable and while it has a faint smoked in smell, the leather seats and the smooth ride make up for a multitude of sins. I regret his selling the LHS as it was in much better shape and had lower miles... But perhaps Woody will buy this one for running around town, as he cant put anything into the Crossfire including golfclubs or both cat carriers...

    He has been talking to a friend about us, I know, and there have been some positive moves, He is spending more time with me and... well... I sense that he is trying. I am too. I want there to be no question of direction, just an obvious forward motion as we try to pick up the pieces of our lives...one piece at a time.

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    My other Blogs~

  • Its All About The Journey~Reshaping My Life,One Pound At A Time

  • My Wide Green Fields~~ The Ohio Journey

  • Hokule'a~~Star of Gladness- A Poetry Blog

  • Lux Aeterna-A Memorial Blog dedicated to those affected by the events of 9-11-2001

  • Hawaii Calls! News Views and Links from the Big Island of Hawaii

  • Remembering Annabelle


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    Blogs I am reading~

    Pretty Nearly Daily Reads ~

  • 922 Cats

  • Collecting My Thoughts


  • Texas Trifles

  • Shiloh Musings

  • Smoothstone...

  • Attitude of Gratitude


  • LaShawn Barber's Corner

  • Journal Of A Writing Man


  • Regeneration


  • Wheelie Catholic


  • Insightscoop


  • Bloggers over 50


  • Koinonikon-Margi


  • Christ Is In Our Midst

  • Daily Weaving


  • Glory To God For All Things


  • The Eleventh~ a blog


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    Blogs of the Ozarks, and the Tri State Region~

  • Live! From Paradise!

  • Steph's Gonna Win!

  • The More Excellent Way

  • ...just another day in paradise...

  • Deo Volente

  • When Kate Blogs

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    Focus on Israel ~~~

  • Smoothstone...

  • Jack's Random Thoughts

  • Me-Ander



  • Solomonia

  • Shiloh Musings

  • Jewish in a Gentile World





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    Abigail Valentine, my little darling ~



    Fave Dog Blogs ~


  • Chihuahua Craziness

  • Miss Sadie Shih-Tzu

  • Raina Roo's and Kitty's too puppy blog

  • Bailey's Buddy

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    Annabelle my Beloved ~

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    May She Rest In Peace 2-25-2009 ~

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